MESSIAN DREAD PERSONAL UPDATE JULY 31/AUGUST 1, 2008
WWW, July/August 2008 - Nobody has more than 24 hours in a day and seven days in a week. And so, your's truly has to realize this too after a failed attempt to simply ignore this basic fact of life. The result is, that I have to stop updating the website for a while to come.
Read all about it in this special personal update.
It's not nice to write this. Not nice, because I hate to admit the things I have to admit for myself here. I will do it publicly. Not because of some masochistic motivation, but simply because I do things in public and I have to explain what I have to explain.
I was already slowing down on updates, but now I am going to slow down even more. The reason being, that I simply can't do all the things that I am currently doing and it has grown over my head right now.
I wake up in the morning, and basically have to deal with a lot of things before I go to sleep again. But this isn't really possible at the moment, because I simply do not have the energy and the time.
I have 100's of unread e-mails, 10's of riddims to mix and sing, a long list of yet-to-review-material, books to write and so on and so forth. A situation which comes into existance as the result of the fact that I do not have the energy, sometimes not even to go out of my house.
What's going on?
Well, I don't wanna say too much in public about everything. Got people to protect and thing. But I am in a phase in my life that is between situations. I might very well end in a different country from where I will work further, but that is not my first option. Those who know me a bit more personal know what I am talking about, but I remain to be very very reluctant in sharing private stuf on public places so to speak.
However, this private situation does affect/effect (i do not know the right word right now) my public works too and it will affect/effect more as time goes by, at least for the coming months.
Basically, I do not know where I will be in a few weeks from now and that situation will not change fore these upcoming months. I tried very hard to work ahead in time so that my private runnings would not negatively affect/effect (yeah, it must be affect) those who like to read the new reviews and columns and so on, but i must admit: I can't do it cause I don't have the energy.
In the end, as said, I am in between two situations. The situation I expect to be in after having been living thought this terrible phase, will help me siginificantly in producing more stuff, but until that time I am in a situation wherein certain things take all my attention.
When I keep pushing myself to produce, which is what I do being the workaholic that I am, I push myself beyond my limits. The results are that I totally collapse. I dont even have the energy to look at my emails, to answer the phone, to even open the door of my house. I don't even have the energy to participate in "my" own message boards.
Please pray for me and people around me who are also involved, because we truly need Jah Guidance. I notice that we are attacked a lot, where in the same time we're fighting and struggling for the well-being of certain people who have been suffering all their lifes.
I'll try to visit the Message Boards daily, I will also keep you posted as best as I can, I'm not planning to go off-line and I know that after this situation I will have a lot to share.