MESSIAN DREAD UPDATE OCTOBER 16 2008
WWW, October 2008 - In the previous update, I was openly wondering as to whether I was doing a Hot Stepper or a Cool Running. Of course, asking the question is answering it and so I took a break.
Cool Runnings, after 1 1/2 month?
It sure feels good to be back on track. Sure, I needed the break but there is nothing better than sitting down and doing the works. After all, there's no need for a Hot Steppers because in order to do this work I need to be cool, so to speak.
I do plan to take it easy in the coming times, because I know that I'm not where I would love to be. Not yet, that is.
As I told Zeph Daniel in an interview a couple of months ago, I am facing the fact that I am what some people call "autist". I know this for several years now, and even though I didn't wanna speak about it publicly, I know that the time had come to speak out about it still.
It is because of this situation, that I simply need to create a certain environment in which I can work and produce the best. I need to live in some kind of routine, and when things mess that down I can get into a state wherein I simply do not know what to do anymore.
Of course, you cannot change the universe to make it fit. There are simply circumstances which you cannot control, but in their turn do influence your life. And I need to deal with that fact just like anyone else. However, the way I deal with it is quite different than "non-autists" would deal with it.
Anyway, I think I have managed to incorporate everything that happened to me in these last months into my life. And it sure feels good to work the works again.